I discovered something very important today. My cycle length. It seems that I am a 29 and 1/2 day cycle. Can you actually count 1/2 a day? I did. Because I have not full on started yet. So I count that as a half day. Makes sense to me!
I am not upset about it. I think it is funny when people want to know if you are upset about it. I don't know why. I guess I just see it as if its time its time, if not I am glad it didn't happen. I have had alot of lessons on timing in other areas of my life so I suppose that is helping me to hold onto this loosely. For example, if God is planning to hook something up that would be better for me not to be pregnant while is happening I certainly dont want to be pregnant. I think of that verse: Matthew 24:19 " How dreadful it will be in those days for pregnant women and nursing mothers!" This is in reference to end times, and I am not saying I think Jesus is coming back next month (although he might), but I can imagine that being pregnant or nursing outside of God's timing is probably dreadful no matter whats happening.
That special and unnerving time between conception and realization that a baby is (or isn't) on the way...
Gods timing is perfect, although we may not know it at the moment
ReplyDeleteI was upset that we had a honeymoon baby, but after almost 9 months of tears, worried if its "to soon" I know that the Lords timing is perfect and although I am just catching a glimpse of what He is doing in my life with this pregnancy, I know the Lord has a bigger plan in this, one that I wont understand just now. But he has broken me in areas and allowed me to face areas in my life and in my family and in my marriage that I wouldn't have done so if I wasn't pregnant so soon. Its all part of His plan, the waiting, the unexpected, the trusting.
Amen sister!
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